It's been awhile since I last updated my post. 

Where should I start huh? 

This semester was a total disaster. 

All the papers are freaking hard. 

There are so many things to be worried especially my pointers. 

It's not the matter of whether I can maintain it or not. I mean, I have to because intern is just two semesters ahead and I have to get into a good company. 

Oh my, sakit kepala!

But above all these, I thank God for guiding me throughout the exam period. I really can feel him. Although all the papers are super hard, yet I manage to complete everything. 

And I remember I was having migraine on my way to sit for my second paper; I was so scared and worried that I can't focus and finish on time. Out of nowhere, I started  to pray. And guess what, it went away after a short while. Thank you God and praise the Lord!

Yeah, I'm doing great here. 

Thank God for your precious words. 

It somehow changed me. 

Jia you ar Then Soo Lee!!! =)  

A piece of my mind.

I'm back again! 

Here we go.

For the past four weeks, nothing has been good to me. 

Many things happened; something big and unexpected.

I've been holding back for more than a year. And I thought that perhaps, it will come to an end someday.

I never thought that things will turn out to be like that. 

And guess what, I evolved into a crybaby again. 

At one point, I thought that maybe I can get through this like a piece of cake. 

I cried for a short-two-days. And I stopped crying after that. 

I've been a good girl. I can control my emotions better that the last time. 

But when I had my first meet up with him after one week of not seeing each other, I was defeated. 

How I wish I could delete all the bad memories away. 

Sometimes, I just can't cry out; but I can feel the emptiness knotted in my heart. 

It hurts. 

If it is possible, I don't want to have anything related to him until I really let go of everything. 

I'm scared that I will be hurt again; by the same person twice.  

My heart is delicate...

Although I didn't express all out, I feel a bit better now. 

God bless! 

Random post.

Time passes real fast; like the speed of lighting.

So many things in my mind and yet I can't blurt all out at once. 

So, I will just keep everything short and simple here. 

There is 7 weeks in this semester. 

Life was a highway for me. So fast that I can't simply put a stop to whatever I'm engaged in.

Honest speaking, I worked hard for this semester. 

Somehow, I've changed. Changed to a new leaf; in terms of studies especially. 

Final is around the corner; 2 more weeks ahead. 

I hope that I can pull it off with better grades this time. 

Guess what, I'm the Chairperson of City Tour January 2013 Intake. 

At first, I was quite reluctant to join the event this semester. 

Somehow, I learnt a lot of things.

Never going to regret about it.  

I know myself best. I'm not a good leader, but I'm ready to learn and improve myself.

Things worked out thanks to all the committee members' full support and commitment.

I'm really grateful for having them in my team tough. =) 

Fighting!!!!

My "English" is in huge deterioration recently. 

I picked the wrong grammar. 

I used the wrong spelling.

Like in most of the time.

Gonna brush up my language soon. Maybe, after final. 

Some random thoughts of mine. 

One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood. 

Don't you agree? =)

Time flies; I slightly changed but my heart still remains the same. 

Of course, I'm happy now but I was happier back then. 

I can hardly find the muse in myself. 

Sometimes, I would rather keep my mouth shut.

Perhaps, I'm growing up. Lame!

Anyway, I believe that things will turn our to be better. It will be! 

Let the passage of time to prove it.   

That's all. 

Night! =)

Weird post. *Haha*

1. I used to get jealous over someone due to some personal matters. Everything is originated from myself, I know that. Honest speaking, I'll be talking happily and naturally to her with the absent of another person. But for now, I really hope that I can be the same in any circumstances. Here, I want to direct my sincere apology for having bad thoughts of her sometimes. 

2. Recently, I'm so concerned on my appearance. It's not a bad thing to be like that but don't be overridden by it. Remember, your heart is where everything lies. A person who owns a beautiful and kind heart is what that matters. 

 

LESSON LEARNT! =) 

Highlights of Y1S3

Hey, I'm back!!!

1, School
To be honest, semester 3 was a disaster. All the subjects were killing me. I have no idea on what my result will be. Anyway, at least it was all over now. After all the sleepless night, I'm totally re-energized now. And yeah, Happy Holiday my friends!!!

2. Family
My family is doing good. My grandma went to K.L last week for the election leaving me, dad and uncle K.H in the house. Life is so boring without grandma. I miss you, grandma!!! By the way, Mother's Day is around the corner. I think I should buy something for her. =)

3. Grandpa
I miss you too, grandpa!!! How are you? Are you doing great? Few days back, I shed a tear when I mesmerized those days we had together. I miss the time when you laughed over jokes that I made even though it was not funny at all. I miss you, grandpa.

4. Father
I don't know why, but there's a wall that stops me from reaching over You. My eager to learn and understand more about You is fading as the days past. I really hope that I can put my trust back into You. Guide me. Show me. Lead me, Father.
Amen.

5. Him
I thought that I could forget about you like a piece of cake. But, the answer is a no. Many things had happened, expected or unexpected one. However, nothing has changed. We are still friends. Sometimes, I agree with you that it's better to be friends. But, sometimes I'm not. I wonder when I'll fully let go of you. I still miss you..

6. General Election
This is the first time where I was being interested in Malaysian politics. You know what, the election was so dirty and unfair. I was overturned by all the bullshits by the government. It was disgusting. I really hope for a better future of Malaysia.

AH-HA!!! Night night!!!

It's time...

"I'll have my moment for today, but after this.. never ever think about it again", I told myself yesterday.  And for real, I enjoyed the time we spent together. 

But again, the same thing happened.. At first, I hesitated whether to ask you or not.. I was scared.. scared that things will turn up to be no good again.. but at last, I found the courage to ask you.. great.. somehow, your answers to my questions are "weird".. don't you feel that we were not behaving like friends that few times .. but the moment you told me that "it's better to be friends", I know that I should put a stop to it.. 

Lord, let it pass real fast.

I hate the fact that I still cried because of you. 

 Deep down inside, I know that I can forget about you someday in the future.

I must stop hoping that you'll crawl back to me someday.

I'm such a fool, didn't I? 

I threw a tantrum in the campus few days ago.

Reason? 

You again.

I was acting like a fool and that was because of you again.

I apologize for my foolishness, my friends.

Somehow, there's still this magic in your every actions and words. 

All I want for now is time.

Slowly, I'll put you down and you will be nothing to me..

I will try harder..