Imma be a QUEEN !!!

HEHEHE

HAHAHA

HOHOHO

HIHIHIHI

And yeah, Miss Then is doing great, people. ;D

I think that I am letting go of him.

*clap clap and proud proud*

Do smile ahead, people !!!

Finally, I got to talk to him on Thursday.

To be honest, I am very glad.

But, one thing.

Our conversation was kinda awkward.

And I hate faking a smile to him.

ishhhhhh

But, who cares. =)

That was just the beginning of something new.

Suddenly, I feel that I'm so brave.

*proud proud*

I really do hope that we can become like last time, though.

I know I can do it if I really want to.

JIA YOU THEN SOO LEE !!!

God bless. =)

I need time !

I need time so badly right now.

=)

I talked to him yesterday for 1 hour ++

Thank you, Lord.

I'm so sure that You are guiding and leading me.

Finally, I got to know what is he thinking.

I was relieved and happy after that small talk.

I really do.

I didn't blame him.

In fact, I feel bad for him.

hahahaha

The best thing is me and him are best friends now. =)

Gambateh yeah THEN SOO LEE !!!

You too, boss !!!

XDDD

4/11/2011

I don't know anything.

What are you thinking actually ?

But, I'm fine.

Thank you, Jesus. =)

I am rejoiced !!!

Everything is fine.

Everyone is happy.

Everything is back to normal, I guess.

I am way more stronger than I thought, people. =)

Thank you, Father.

Bless my grandma.

Don't let her feel lonely.

I was so happy just now.

Because she smiled. =)

17/10/2011

Dear Ah Gong,

It was on that morning, you left the world, left us.

Why ? I ask myself over and over again.

I know it very clearly that everyone including me will leave this world someday, which is unpredictable.

But until now, I still not used to it. I tried to let go... but I miss you, Ah Gong.

I miss you a lot.

I miss the time when I kept 'kacau' you even though Ah Po had scolded me for so many times.

I want to be strong, but I am so stupid that I can't even hold my tears now.

Honestly, I will think of you whenever I have nothing to do.

Last few days, I looked at our sampat pictures together. I was so overwhelmed by those pictures. I cried... and my sister found out... and she cried along with me. Thank you, Yuki.

Since then, I dare not to touch that camera anymore. I'm scared that I will cry again but... I want to look at those pictures so badly.

I went back to Ipoh yesterday. My aunt fetched me and my sister back.

I was so dang tired... I reached... there was nobody sitting on that chair anymore... that chair had been thrown away, I guess... I can't say 'Ah Gong, I'm back. Do you miss your guai cucu?'... that was my famous line last time... not anymore now...

I miss your smile and laughter so much and that's the reason why I always 'kacau' you. Ah Gong, you really did a lot of things for us. You raised me up... and I am very proud to have a grandpa like you.

Without you, I don't think that I can become the 'me' now.

How are you now? Are you in heaven?

I want to hear your voice... I miss the voice of yours... I miss everything of you, Ah Gong... I still remember your face on that day...

Rest in peace, Ah Gong. Your are the best Ah gong I ever had !!

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Ah Po, you are really a strong woman. I promise that I will always be by your side whenever you need me.

I wish I could be strong like you too.

I know that I can do it !!

GAMBATEH THEN SOO LEE !!

God bless everyone =)