It's time...

"I'll have my moment for today, but after this.. never ever think about it again", I told myself yesterday.  And for real, I enjoyed the time we spent together. 

But again, the same thing happened.. At first, I hesitated whether to ask you or not.. I was scared.. scared that things will turn up to be no good again.. but at last, I found the courage to ask you.. great.. somehow, your answers to my questions are "weird".. don't you feel that we were not behaving like friends that few times .. but the moment you told me that "it's better to be friends", I know that I should put a stop to it.. 

Lord, let it pass real fast.

I hate the fact that I still cried because of you. 

 Deep down inside, I know that I can forget about you someday in the future.

I must stop hoping that you'll crawl back to me someday.

I'm such a fool, didn't I? 

I threw a tantrum in the campus few days ago.

Reason? 

You again.

I was acting like a fool and that was because of you again.

I apologize for my foolishness, my friends.

Somehow, there's still this magic in your every actions and words. 

All I want for now is time.

Slowly, I'll put you down and you will be nothing to me..

I will try harder..

You again!

I'm thinking of you again.

I just can't deny the fact that I'm missing you like all the times.

I thought that I'll be fine, but I just can't stop from being a crybaby.

Shame on me! 

Honestly, I really want to know whether or not you are better off without me. 

Will you think of me? 

Impossible! 

I'm giving myself hope again, didn't I ?  

I wonder why I put so much feelings for you.

Being friends, huh? 

If so, I will really try my best to be friends with you.

Sounds so convincing.. Bullshit! 

I really miss you.

I feel like hugging you now.

Jia you Then Soo Lee!!!!!!! 

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

It's Christmas!!! 

And guess what, I spent my whole day doing house chores. =(

Pity me huh? ;)

Father, I really wish that You will change my attitude towards You. 

I don't know whether this is the right thing for me or not. 

But I know there is something about You...

Anyway, have a blessed Christmas everyone!!!!

God bless!!! 

End of sem 2

Time flies. 

And now is the end of my sem 2.

I can't believe it. 

There are so many things happened recently.

Too much to handle? 

Nahh, it's just too much of drama. 

Final is over. 

Honest speaking, I feel that I've put in 110% of effort this time.

I long for an "A" for my FAF2. I really do.

 However, I can't even balance my cash flow and balance sheet.  

"A"? 

It vanished just right after the exam yesterday.

I'm scared. I don't know how will my result be. 

I don't want my CGPA to drop.. I really don't.

 But one thing for sure.. I'm gonna give my best shot in the next sem. 

December is the best month ever!!!

I love December. =) 

This is because my birthday falls on this month. 

I had great and unforgettable moments.

I was surprised and happy because you guys purposely came to Ipoh to celebrate for me.

I'm so blessed. =) 

Thank you guys!!! 

I love all the presents so much.

I bet I was the happiest girl on that day. Haha

Love you guys to the maximum!!! <3 p="p">

Above all the happiness, there is something that breaks my heart.

Honestly, I had good times with you.

You've taught me a lot of things.. which cannot be denied.

However, the longer I know you, the more I understand about you.

Sometimes, I was annoyed of your actions and words. 

And yet, I didn't voice out because I don't want you to be mad at me. 

At last, we told you. 

And you didn't even speak to us after that.

I hate that!!! 

Someone that is so close to you before is now like a total stranger. Who would like it? 

We told you because we want you to become better. 

Yeah, I know.. I have no rights to judge people.

But I rather tell you what I feel than backstabbing you. 

I hope that our friendship won't fade away just like that.

God bless.

One last thing.

Dear Father, I'm no longer like last time.

I'm not reading bible and I'm lazy to go to church.

I'm so far away from you.

What's going on with me? 

But I'm glad that you never let me go. 

You wakened me that day.

I really wanna know more about you, Father.

Sometimes, I will be questioning myself.

Is this the right thing for me? 

I still don't have an exact answer. 

So, show me, Father. 

Lead me.

And guide me. 

God bless everyone!!! <3 p="p">

5/8/2012

Good news!!!

My eyes are getting better. Thank God. =) 

I'm glad because all the midterms and assignments are bidding goodbye to me. =D

FOR NOW, IMMA FIGHT FOR THE FINAL!!! (Tomorrow onwards lah haha)

Yes, you can do it Then Soo Lee!!!  

MUAHAHAHA

And yeah, Father, bless everyone around me.

Bless him and mould him so that he would stop gambling.

Show me too, Father. Is that the right thing to do?

I really wish that it is a YES.=)      

I always make others to get mad at me.

My unseen potential, huh?  

Father, I really wish to get forgiveness from them.

God bless. <3

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Great news!!!

Dad is currently working again!!!

Hehe Praise the Lord. =)